I Feel Nothing REBOOT Part 3
It made Khushi Jump and Arnav automatically held her firmly… “not now!” Arnav yelled…
Khushi’s eyes were still staring into his…
“She’s thinking…Please God…please…”
But Khushi pushed away from him and motioned him to go to the door…”It’s Anjaliji…please go…”
“Please…she needs you…”
He could see that she had turned off again…
Arnav reluctantly strode to the bedroom door and open it…
…”what the!?”
Standing before him was Nani, Di, Akash, Payal, mami and Shyam…
Arnav wasn’t in the mood for whatever they were going to say, but he tried to relax a little…
He leaned against the door and said, “what can i do for all of you?”
“Badly?!…She’s been alone! Snubbed by everyone!”
Nani spoke up…”I know Chote, and that is not going to happen from our side anymore.”
“I love my sister,” Payal said softly…”I want our relationship back…”
He turned back to look for Khushi who…wasn’t there???
Arnav felt his pulse quicken and moved away from the door only to have Nani grab his jacket sleeve and say, “Chote, we haven’t finished.”
And he shut the door in their faces.
He immediately started searching the room and calling for Khushi, and soon saw her by the pool looking at the sky…
Breathing a sigh of relief he approached her and stood right in front of her.
He stood so close, but didn’t touch her.
His gaze followed hers to the bright stars…
“I can see them…” Arnav whispered…”They are looking down on you. So proud of the woman you have become.”
His eyes moved back down to her…
“I don’t see anything. I don’t feel anything.” she stated plainly.
Oh God, Khushi please come back…
“LOOK AT ME.” Arnav said firmly but without anger.
Her eyes hit his…
On the verge of tears, he asked her…”close your eyes…”
She only thought he could hurt?
She no longer trusted him with anything?
He was ready to plead with her, but then saw her eyes slip shut…
The guilt inside him was suffocating…”I drove you to this. I will never be able to forgive myself for this, but i will damn make sure that you don’t remain this way…you are happiness…you are life…you are faith…you are serenity…you are absolutely crazy…and i am in love with you…you can tell me that you don’t feel anything till you lose your voice…but…” he moved so close that his lips touched hers…”I know your heart…”
“What is he saying!?” her mind screamed…
She wasn’t sure how everything had changed from what she was USED to.
Her Home life had now become this strange, uneasy, LOVING atmosphere…
Arnav’s last words brought her back to her senses…
“…I know your heart…”
Her eyes opened to see her husband, who was looking at her like if he looked away he’d cease to exist.
“Stop this…” she murmered…and started to move back…
But Arnav only moved forward…
That same old dance they used to do before all the pain and revenge started…
She continued to move back and he pursued her…
“P…please stop, ” she found herself saying…
“I can’t…I won’t…” said Arnav hotly…” …if i stop, I die. And seeing you here before me, I have regained my will to live. I can only pray that you find it in your heart to forgive me. I can only beg that you find it in your heart to forgive me. I will wait forever. I will not faulter. My love for you has been stifled, tricked, tormented, suffocated and…and i will NOT TAKE IT ANYMORE. Your heart is the most precious gift. Please give me another chance to keep your heart safe, keep it loved…”
Arnav planted his hands on the wall beside her, fencing her in…”THIS is me…I have been in love with you for too long…and seeing what I’ve done…what this whole situation has done to you…my heart can’t take it anymore…”
His intensity was drawing her in, so deeply into his eyes that she couldn’t look away if she tried…
“I don’t even think i have a heart…it started breaking…each piece that broke fell and disappeared ..I don’t have anymore strength left to love you…”
Khushi’s voice was blank…
ALL this time she had loved HIM!
His eyes found hers…
She had loved HIM!
Even through all that he did…
Oh God…
“I don’t deserve He forgiveness…I don’t deserve her…” his heart was in shreds…
But as he looked into her eyes, the windows to her soul, he knew, without one doubt, that no one could ever love her with such passion as he did.
Even if she never loved him again, even if she never forgave him…
He would move heaven and earth to make her happy…
This precious woman had been through enough…
Now he was going to protect her with his life, and shower her with his love.
“Please don’t say anymore…”
His thought process stopped when he heard her voice…
“Khushi-“
“No. Please. Let our emotions just die. I no longer love you. I no longer love anyone.”
Khushi’s brow wrinkled as she frowned… “Are you ok? Do you have a headache?”
Arnav’s heart was breaking…
Was she so lost that she wasn’t able to read his eyes anymore?
How could he do this to her?
How could he have pushed her emotions so far inside her that she no longer wanted to let them surface!
The look he was giving her was already burning her heart. “I am sorry Arnavji, I won’t bother you again tonight.”
Briskly standing up, he threw his phone to the ground…”Damn this shit!!! Why can’t i stop loving her!? I don’t want to love her! I hate her so much for this. I am disgusted that i ever LET her into this house! I wish she just stopped caring! Then it would be easier to hate her!!!”
“This won’t do…” her thoughts were even emotionless…”Now the family might think that I am torturing HIM.”
She brought her hands up to his chest and spoke softly, “Arnavji, I don’t know what to say to you. I truly can’t understand what is going on. I will continue trying to be a good wife to you. But please stop saying things like this to me…I can’t love you… I have nothing to love with.”
“You have…nothing left to love with?” he repeated her words…
And then planted his right palm firmly on her heart.
Never having touched her this way before, Khushi gasped…
“DO YOU KNOW WHAT I CAN FEEL?!” he paused pressing his hand more firmly against her chest…”I can feel your HEART! Beating!…YOUR. HEART. It’s THERE Khushi! And i won’t rest until I see you smile from your heart again…”
His eyes were clear.
He made his desicion.
He was in pursuit of her.
And he was NOT going to give up.
Khushi could feel his heated gaze still on her, and tried to change the subject…”W…would you like some tea before you go to sleep?” she asked quietly.
Before she could open it, Arnav caught up to her and swung her around into his arms.
She slowly blinked as Arnav released her and held her hand…”let’s go…”
……………………
The whole family was in the lounge and saw them coming…
Anjali walked up to them with a smile and said, “New beginnings. Please let us start again. Khushiji, please forgive us for our reactions. And Chote, i love you so much and want you to be happy, i know Khushiji makes you happy. ” she reached with arms outstretched towards Khushi…
Khushi put on her rehersed smile and hugged Anjali…
The other family soon joined in…
“Now we can have some color in this house again! We all have a reason to smile!” Anjali beamed happily…
His gaze hard on the person who just spoke…Shyam.
Arnav spoke calmly, “Khushi gives ME a reason to live, and smile. She’s MY wife and I.LOVE.HER.”
Arnav tightened his grip on Khushi’s hand, which he had never let go, and pulled her close.
But Shyam knew who the statement was directed at…
…where was she?
“Khushi!!!!!!!” he ran into every room, he ran outside, he screamed for her!
Then he remembered what Shyam said, ” And i swear, that very soon, i will be taking you away from here.”
No. NO!
He HAD to find her!
He had vowed to keep her safe!
How could he fail her like this!?!?
With one last deafening scream he yelled, “KHUSHIII!!!”…
He was writhing around in bed…
Since Anjali had almost discovered that Khushi was sleeping by the poolside, Arnav ordered that they share the bed to keep up appearances.
But he had never touched her.
Never even looked her way…
But tonight when they fell asleep, he kissed her forehead and fell asleep facing her…
She was so unnerved that she could hardly sleep…
And immediately searching for Khushi…
The moment his eyes locked to hers, she hurriedly pulled her hand away…
Khushi feeling totally winded quickly started squirming…
Khushi broke the silence, “you were dreaming…are you ok?”
Arnav suddenly remembered his dream, his face covered with fear…”I won’t let anything happen to you…I won’t let him touch you. I won’t let him near you… I promise. I have already failed you once. I have put you last on too many occasions. You. YOU are what’s important to me!” suddenly feeling like he was falling he lay his head on her lap trying to control all his emotions which were starting to spiral out of control…
She looked at the man in front of her.
The man desperately trying to right all the wrongs he had done.
The one who now made her feel that she wasn’t alone…
He felt her run her fingers through his hair…
He felt her trying to soothe him…
Khushi woke up still sitting leaning on the bedframe with Arnav sleeping peacefully in her lap.
Her hand on his hair…
She pulled her hand away in horror as though she’d just touched a live flame…
She was beautiful.
There weren’t enough words to describe his wife.
Not fast.
But slowly and deliberately.
Lingering.
She didn’t know how to react to all this.
She didn’t know if he would suddenly change towards her again.
She just …didn’t know anything anymore.
She looked at her eyes…her pupils were dilated…
She put her hand to her chest…
Beating fast.
ANGER.
Then the door swung open.
And Arnav was NOT prepared for what happened next…
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beautiful
glad the family apologized and accepted khushi so sad they could not see her worth and arnav is trying to bring her back but it won;t be so easy awesome update